Loving Two Lovers

Whoever said you can choose who to love is definitely wrong. Love comes and go like how the weather changes, you would never know who you'll love next just like you would never know when it'll rain. Right now... My heart has been split into two. I'm with someone right now and I've love her dearly, she is understanding and loving, beautiful and caring. There is nothing bad to say about her and i would never want to leave her. BUT. There is someone else.. Who is somewhat like her but maybe better, let's call the first girl, S and the second one B. Well... Long before I'm with S, i was in love with B but i did not tell her. I was neither very close to her cause i didn't want to show any affection and ruin the relationship we have as friends, yet my feelings for her grew stronger as i get to know her and i still conceal my feelings towards her due to the fact that i didn't want her to feel any awkwardness between us. And suddenly... S came along, she used to be with me but we broke up about a year ago and a few months ago we starting talking. I tried to use S to cover my feelings for B, so i keep talking to S more and more and try to grow feelings for her to suppress my feelings for B and it work. A few weeks ago me and S are together again. Then... Outta no where, me and B started becoming very close and i told her about my feelings for her, she told me she feels the same but i have no idea whether to believe or not. Regardless of the fact I'm with S, my feelings for B never died. I told B i regretted not showing my affection to her sooner. Though i'm madly in love with B right now i'll still treat S the same till we're apart yet again. B, i love you for you who are, and i would be honored if in the future and if fate shall allow us.. I would show you my love for you, and would tell you how much i really love you. S, i'm sorry. I still love you and would wanna be with you, but B has the bigger part of my heart, nothing will change between us and i would be with you for as long as i could. I love you.