Nightmares

The night was beautiful that night, it was pure black. There was no stars, no moon, not a glimpse of light shinning from the black cloth covering the earth. On that night.. The wind was blowing gently on my skin, feel the cold air touching my skin as though a corpse was caressing my face with it frozen undead bones. The view was magnificent... No words could describe how amazing the view was. The cars were tiny, the people like ant, and the tress like weeds. Yes.. I on the top of a building roof, looking down at the barren road, staring into the magnificence of God's wondrous creations. My eyes start to shut tight, my palm putting close to my heart while feeling every single beat, and I lean forward, slowly. Inch by inch and slowly..... I felt the wind slowly tearing my skin away. I open my eyes and see the road moving closer and closer, then I realise... I was falling. Deeper and deeper into darkness. The only thought in my mind was nothing but HER. I accepted the truth that I was all over and that smile was my final smile to her. Tears flow down my eyes while I fall and all of a sudden... I woke up.

I woke up with tears on my eyes and sweat on my face. It was yet another dream bout her. A dream about seeing her for the last time. I thank god that it was just a dream but curse that i wish i was dead. I couldn't bear this pain, constantly one nightmares after another. And each time is about her. How I wish i could just end this pain and tell her everything that is on my mind. But... I have no choice. I have to keep it as my secret, till my deathbed. I just wish... I could see her in my dreams again, but not like this. Never like this...


((The original was posted on September 26, 2010. I re-posted due to my own reason)