Decision.

I don't know who to turn to anymore, the more i seek for advise the more doubtful my choices are. Thank you for always being here for me, my old friend. I really don't know what to do anymore. To let go or to hang on. I truly love her, regardless of how stressful and how painful it is at times but i still love her no matter what. My friend, what am i suppose to do? I've told myself this.. A selfish man would hold on to what's dear to him but harm it at the same time, but a selfless man would let go on what's dear to him and harm him instead of it. My heart is telling me not to let go for i may regret but what if holding onto her is what is making me regret instead? We've been together for more than a year now and i've brought nothing but sadness to her. Nothing but lies and deceit, pain and agony, suffering and despair. Though she says i've given her joy and happiness but through what she has said earlier... I've sense no happiness. No joy. No love. I've given her nothing but i've gain everything. I've been a selfish man for a year and yet have not seen the truth till today. My friend... What must i do? To continue to be a selfish man i was, or be a selfless man and give up my everything? I need to decide but i dont know what to choose. Now all i can do is wait. Wait for a sign, telling me what to do. Wait for the inevitable. To stay or to leave. Thank you, my friend. For being my listening ear when no one is near. You've always been a good friend to me though we rarely spoke. I wish you could help me choose my decision but it seems this is a choice i have to make on my own. Thank you once again and goodbye, my old friend. Let us both see what time has to offer. What time will show us.